its a funny place i'm in. the transition, the impatience, the foresight. i have spent a lot of my life jumping... not with any sort of calculation, rather, just a quick jump here and there to the next destination. not that i've failed to think through how things should come to pass, but i have jumped with such an urgency that i have failed to see all of the possible out comes and further not focused on multiple sight lines.
i have not wound up face down too often. i've not missed my mark too many times, but oh mercy, it is getting exhausting. i tried to take virtues in stride by holding onto the ones i thought necessary and relevant and leaving the others to the side. i have not shackled myself with regrets, i have not looked back in longing for the chance to make different choices, but i've looked back enough to know how i'd respond to certain questions if asked of me again.
i have saddled up beside patience. i have begun waiting for good things, not forcing them. and now, for the first time in my life, i'm wondering what to do in the day to day. the disciplines are good to me, but the days have a habit of slipping from me. i'm half way through a record and half way through writing the next. there has got to be a way to seize the day and see the days ahead.
right now i'm listening to josh ritter. Girl in the war is a great tune, but only really comes alive on In The Dark - Live @ Vicar Street ... i've listened to 40 versions of the song trying to find one as good as that one.
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I felt this post deserved more than a spam comment. These are some hard won reflections.
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